I’ve wandered through the filmy veils, looking behind each one to see what comes next. The dark and the light drew me in. I felt pain, joy, envy, rapture, disappointment, rage and abundance. The journey to the heart is ongoing and there are times when I don’t listen to the signs, and then I branch off onto another path that leads me towards pain. How deep and dark was that chasm, it felt lonely and sad. The universe had answers, yet I passed on, saying, No.

Thank you for this moment, all the hurting and sadness forced me to see there is a light in the darkness if you adjust your gaze. Feeling bitter and resentful, the story kept repeating itself until there was an oblivion of blackness. The heaviness to carry was a choice, and yet giving it up created a lightness I never imagined.

These birds sat in my heart, pecking away at the brokenness until there was nothing recognizable. In that state of nothing there was a realization that I only needed to ask for more. When I finally spoke, the Universe dropped me sparkling gemstones one by one that shone in the darkness. I picked each one up and kept them safely in my grasp.

There was ugliness and betrayal, but I’m filled with gladness to have awakened to my true self. The dream to be happy had me clamoring for bliss that I didn’t think existed. And yet, it was waiting for me, and I can breathe now. I deserve this wild and beautiful life. There were wings all along to journey back to myself. You are worthy, dear friend.